It is happening

Psalms 119:28
My soul is weary with sorrow;

strengthen me according to your word.

I woke up this morning...and as I walked into the living room...there they were.  A red practice jersey...two backpacks...and sacks upon sacks of school supplies.  My mind is in a tailspin right now.  The way my big boys have been acting lately, I can't wait for them to grace the presence of their new teachers.  But then I think (which I should just NOT do and then I wouldn't have these moments)...they have been here with me all summer.  And as frustrated as I get...they've been home.  I know where all my little cubbies are and that gives me peace of mind.  Once they start school, they'll go on about their day, and I'll go about mine.  Ugh...sniff, sniff.  And then there is Coach.  He'll leave this morning and we'll not get to really see each other for about three months.  We'll pass in the wind and communicate via text or cell phone calls.  Which we both know is inevitable and completely do-able...but still it makes me sad.

So...I could choose to pout all day long.  I could (as I said yesterday) sit in a corner and eat cookie dough til my stomach hurts.  But instead...I am choosing to make my list of things to do and I am giving my sadness to God today.  Because I know that no one understands me more than He does.  I won't even have to explain...because He knows and completely "gets" my every move.  Kind of like my Mom, Sister and Coach.  How they figure me out is a mystery.  I try to confuse and turn them all around, but they know the heart of the matter every single time. 

Lord...help me to realize that time moves on quickly.  Help me to understand and embrace the changes in our lives as we walk into them full force this week.  Be with me when the sadness of missing the family overtakes the joy of knowing they're happy and learning.  Help me to remember the fun times of the summer and look forward to them again.  Give me a smile today when I feel like falling to pieces and know Lord that I will be looking to you today for my strength.
Amen

Please include Logan Xanders in your prayers today as he will be having some tests run on his new heart.  Lots of love going out to you Logan...stay strong!

Have a Blessed Day!
Amy